Falling into pieces
It's getting dark and I feel like I'm falling into pieces again.
I write ,erase,rewrite it again.
I know I'm quite close to that point where I won't be able to hold all the pieces together as I tried so much until now.
I decided to stop fighting for a while,I don't have energy left to fight,I spent it all in useless battles that only hurt me.
I need a sanctuary.
Not to escape,but to ground myself,to ease the anger and the pain,to forget for some moments, to soften all the defence mechanisms I have in place.
I need to find you,even if this still scares me because I still don't know how to explain then,now,the space,which was never meant to separate,but to give time to heal what hurt me.
I need to hear your words to understand.
It was hard to stay away when all I wanted was to be in your arms.
Can you hug me tight cause I need it the most?
And if I start crying in your arms,let me cry all those tears I couldn't cry before.
Let me feel safe again.
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