8 years

Dear mom, 

2920 days without you. 

For me today is not a celebration day, it's again the day when I lost you 8 years ago.

It was cold and raining heavily, as it is today.I couldn't feel a thing. 

I'm sitting in a coffee place, watching the rain and I'm a little messy because I slept only 4 hours and I'd been trying to figure out what should I write. 

I don't know, there are so many things I wish I could tell you over a cup of coffee.

But most of all, I wish you were here.

I'm done with running from this pain, I want to be vulnerable and feel it as intense as it is today.

I'm listening to Placebo's "Happy birthday in the sky" and I can finally cry. 

A tight hug can help... 

Happy birthday in the sky. 

Love you