8 years

Dear mom, 

2920 days without you. 
For me today is not a celebration day, it's again the day when I lost you 8 years ago.
It was cold and raining heavily, as it is today.I couldn't feel a thing. 
I'm sitting in a coffee place, watching the rain and I'm a little messy because I slept only 4 hours and I'd been trying to figure out what should I write. 
I don't know, there are so many things I wish I could tell you over a cup of coffee.
But most of all, I wish you were here.
I'm done with running from this pain, I want to be vulnerable and feel it as intense as it is today.
I'm listening to Placebo's "Happy birthday in the sky" and I can finally cry. 
A tight hug can help... 

Happy birthday in the sky. 

Love you


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