Confused

Do you remember those moments when you are feeling everything so intense and you all you want is a little pause to breathe?
You hope that if you concentrate on breathing, all the messy feelings are going to find their own way.
You are tired of all the questions and problems with no answer that keep you awake at night.
You think it would be easier to know exactly where you stand, no more playing games, hiding feelings.
This uncertainty only feeds the scenarios in your mind, every day.
You felt like doing and trying everything,instead his behaviour confuses you.
One time he's the most caring, attentive and sweet person and other times he's nervous around you and you read nothing in his eyes.
Sometimes you wonder if you're enough, if you've missed something, because you found something you are afraid to lose.
You've lost too much in the past and even the idea of losing more makes you angry and nervous.
You know time passes quickly, you would rush everything, you become impatient.
There are days when you get tired of sleepless nights, feelings you can't explain.
You don't want to lose anymore, so you let him try this time...