My writing: Scars(29)

We all have scars, have been hurt and hurt other people.

I know my scars so well, because I've always tried to hide them. And I built walls for that, walls that you need patience and courage to climb. I still have those...

I have been hurt a lot during many years and that left me with some painful scars. For this reason I trust people hard and keep them at a certain distance, so that they can't hurt me again.

But somehow you came closer and I let you and trusted you. 

I was so disappointed when my expectations didn't meet reality, but after many hours of thinking, I know you did the best you could.

Maybe your best was not the result I wanted and there is nobody to blame for that. We are all different, want different things, have expectations, make mistakes and we move on.

There are moments when I miss you,when I would climb all the walls you built and hug you, just to know you are ok.

I have seen you hurt badly twice and I felt your pain. I wish I had never hurt you, or that you didn't  hurt me so many times, but I can't change the facts.

All I know is that I can no more stay where it hurts....