Thursday, November 24, 2016
A crisis is unpredictable most of the time and it hits you suddenly without realizing what happened.
This year on my birthday I decided to take the annual blood tests and I had no idea of the surprise that was coming.
Apparently out of nowhere after other multiple tests I found out that I had an autoimmune thyroid problem , called Graves disease. It just hit it me, very hard.
I searched everything I could find about it: meds, ways to treat, diet,etc. What it scares me is that it's very tricky: the meds must be taken for max 2 years, then you have to see if it works and you don't have a relapse, because if you have one you have to either take the surgical approach or the radioactive iodine.
I was shocked, in denial and didn't understand where was the positive solution. I still can't see it now, all I know is that it's disease based on stress.
If I were to make a choice today I would choose the most practical approach, the radioactive iodine, it gets you to hypothyroidism and it's way easier to treat.
But I also have to consider having kids in the future and this makes harder to choose a decision.
After my mum died I didn't want to see doctors or hospitals for some time. Now I have to make tests every 2-3 months hoping the results get better and it's stressing too.
I am in anger phase now, I don't understand why this happened to me when I was finally ready to move on.
The first week on anti thyroid meds was awful, I had been extremely tired.
Another aspect that bothers me is that I could get more weight than I already had without knowing about it, even if I had tried different diets, sport,etc.
At least now I understand why I was so tired, why no diet worked or why I came home crying after work many times.
I try not to stress as much as I can, to eat healthy, to have patience on the long process that I have ahead.
Maybe I will be stronger when this phase ends, but I surely didn't want any of it.
Monday, November 21, 2016
I've waited a little before writing this post,because I had to see the last 2 episodes of The Young Pope, so I can have the whole image.
As far as I'm concerned this is the best movie/ series of 2016 and I couldn't find any flow yet.
With The Young Pope began my crush for Jude Law and his huge talent.
The new Pope is the youngest American Pope, Lenny Belardo , who was raised by the age of 8 by sister Mary in an orphanage after he had been abandoned by his hippie parents.
This is a theme that will follow him through all the episodes, looking to find them and why he had been abandoned.
As he says, he's a contradiction: drinks Cherry Coke Zero for breakfast, smokes, prays for a woman to get pregnant and she does, doesn't like to be seen in public, loves babies, is cynical and arrogant.
But he's also a conservative and wants to restore the old glory by being mysterious and untouchable.
It is impossible to forget his first speech in front of all St Peter's Square : "What have we forgotten?"...." We have forgotten happiness"
By knowing everything around him he succeeds in maintaining his position. The episode 8 is very powerful and you begin to understand why he's called a saint.
Episode 9 has a beautiful monologue with Lenny staying on a beach and talking about lost and found love.
"What is more beautiful my love? Love lost or love found?
Don't laugh at me, my love, I know I'm awkward and naive when it comes to love and I ask questions straight out of the pop songs.
To find or to lose?
In the end, my love, we have no choice, we have to find it".
You can imagine a forbidden love story between Lenny and another woman, but this isn't going to happen, he's way to conservative.
Episode 10 brings Lenny in Venice, addressing the people with a lovely speech, still searching for his parents. The end is quite unexpected and leaves an open door for a second season.
Rome and Vatican are lovely, the architecture, the gardens, the costumes, everything is perfect.
Jude Law made an incredible role, going from a cynical and arrogant pope, to showing his insecurities, his softer side , building this image as a whole. There is no doubt about his great talent or beautiful face :)
I hope there is going to be a season 2 because it totally got me and I will see these 10 episodes again and again for sure!
Wednesday, November 09, 2016
I remember seeing Alfie years ago and thought it was a funny movie with a good looking actor. I saw Alfie again last weekend and nothing changed that much....
But the trigger was The Young Pope, the new HBO miniseries where Jude Law is playing an american young non-conformist pope who drink Cherry Zero Coke.
So I wanted to search and see more movies with Jude Law and Dom Hemingway was the lucky one.
I barely recognized Jude Law or his lovely face in this movie, a 2013 British black comedy.
The monologue in the beginning is quite fun and probably the thing you will remember after seeing this movie.
So Dom( Jude Law) is a safe cracker who spent 12 years in prison and now seeks his payment. He's funny, goes from angry to laughing, but always getting his way.
But in spite of all his running after money he wants to be accepted again by his daughter, so a little piece of happiness.
What I liked was another monologue, at his wife's grave, where he becomes human again. That reminded my that I used to know someone who was very unhappy and I could understand better that feeling.
This character is not what you would generally expect from Jude Law, kind of the opposite, but is so well played, that you begin to like it in spite of all the flaws and stupid things he does.
I will write separately about the Young Pope, which is probably the best movie of 2016.